I am usually pretty calm. I can control my emotions. I don’t feel anything I don’t want to feel.
But I am freaking out!
Rimfire is pretty much my first pet – I have had oh-so-many animals before him – but he is the first that I have been involved in his life since puppyhood, and the first that is with me all day, everyday, whose care falls primarily into my willing hands.
Actually Rimfire and LL (our beautiful cat) are probably the first pets I will see grow old and die of natural causes.
I don’t really know how I am going to handle it. I don’t know what to do about that. I don’t know how I am going to process this.
A family member has mentioned that they don’t know much about old people because she isn’t really with her old family members, and it’s the same for me. I am hoping I will deal with people and pets growing old, well.
Well, Rimfire has come down with an issue that we need to take care of at the vet. This issue can’t be taken care of without anesthesia. I am so nervous! I am trying to stay calm for his sake, (he can totally tell when I am acting differently), but I can tell that in my head, I am not doing well.
All it is, is some “routine maintenance” but because it went undiagnosed, they might have to do more. If the anesthesia wasn’t enough to freak me out, THAT IS.
I have no idea what he will be going through, or what they will have to do while he is under.
Will he come back with all his teeth (it’s a dental problem)? Will he deal with it okay if he doesn’t? Will he be in a funk because he misses his teeth?
Once it’s all done, I will take care of him no matter what happens, but I am worried for him, for his health, and for his safety.
Staying calm? I don’t know. Being there for him? Undoubtedly.
This is the most serious thing that has happened since we had a cancer scare with LL, and I am not handling it well. But I guess that is a good sign – I am not heartless 🙂 I just hope that I don’t scare Rimfire!
If you guys have any ideas for helping me not worry so, or how to deal with pets getting surgery, or growing older, I welcome them!