I don’t really have a tidy synopsis, or finishing sentence for this post, but it was a talk and a thinking conclusion I wanted to share because it weighed on my mind at first, until I thought about it. I thought hearing about it may help someone? 😀
I was with a co-worker at my new internship, and we were talking future dreams. After she told me about hers, which was absolutely incredible, she asked about mine?
I told her my – rather overwhelming – spiel that is very hard to explain.
The basic idea of it is, though, that I want to work disaster relief in sudden crises, like natural disasters, and things like this.
She said, “I couldn’t do that. It’d be too sad.”
This took me aback.
Why hadn’t I thought about that?
Wow, am I super heartless?
Well, I had considered the shock, and overwhelming sadness factor of the possible circumstances, and dismissed it. This due to the times I’ve been in the most sudden and immense crises I’ve faced, and I have a mode where it doesn’t bother me, and I focus on doing what needs to be done. Falling apart isn’t actually in me, I just do stuff. Since I know when faced with a crisis, I can be a helper, I thought I could utilize this by going into disaster situations.
Did I really just dismiss the sadness of thousands of deaths that I may face, by saying I have the job qualifications?
Actually, no. That just made me consider the job.
What made me not even think of how terrible it would be is the one thing that keeps me going.
And it’s that super cliché and over-used story about the beach full of starfishes. But, the thing is it speaks to me, and helps me realize what, in impossible circumstances, makes little changes MATTER.
In case you haven’t heard it, (or could use hearing it again), it is this.
A man is walking along a beach covered with starfish. As far as the eye can see, there are dying starfish everywhere, too many to save, too many to fathom.
But this man is walking along, picking up a starfish, and throwing it back into the sea. And repeating this life-saving action over and over again. But you can’t even tell, the beach is covered with them still.
So, another guy walks up to him. “Why even bother?” he asks, “There’s no way you’re going to make a difference!”
The guy doesn’t say anything for a moment, stoops to pick up another starfish, and throws it into the sea.
“For that one, I made a difference.” He replies.
You may not change the whole world, but you can change someone’s whole world.
This story, and this sentence constantly serve to re-center my mind.
And until the coworker mentioned it, that was all I had thought about with disaster relief. I didn’t think about the sadness, the giant loss of life, all I thought about was the possible difference and real-help I could provide. That was my sole thought, and why I was so eager to get trained so I could be able throw myself in these situations and start helping.
(Bt-dub, the original, it seems:)
Do you have any stories or quotes that keep you going in your darkest time, or when you start to lose hope?
Have you ever thought you were heartless, but something turned it around, or you had to adjust something?